There has to be an Ending

I prayed for a guy who can live in God, so he will lead me to walk together in God's path.

Become mature and wise by growing with Him in the all aspect of his work, friendship, and family. He can boost my mood and give me a space to share who the real I am.

Whenever I start to think all over again, there is a guy who always comes and somehow his life reflect my type of a guy.

We have passed same moment recent years when we become friends, but we end up with same thing. Is it because we solved the same problem with the same solution or should we think other solution and well.... it would be a thing that involves us in it?

at the very last energy while think of it... I bravely asked..

Does he wants to grow with me as a woman or a best friend of him?

he didn't answer.

there has to be an ending for this.

If he can't take a step, then I will.

What would kind of ending be like?

How can I end it?

unfortunately, my anxiety is much still much bigger than my curiosity of the new step that I want to take.